| thought it was time to update...here it is...man xanga has changed some...kinda freaked me out when i logged in.. XANGA= good times .. Beau |
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| I saw Shane and Shane the other night and they did some of their new songs...one in particular really was AMAZING..
Shane talked about how he had been accused by the enemy over and over and that he realized the enemy was right...but then he was reminded of Christ and all He is and all He does...
I have become so entranced with some much of the fringes that I have left the meat alone...I have forgotten the Gospel...the Good News...that while I am a sinner...I am cursed b/c I can't keep the law...that He has made me clean...he has taken my curse...He is still my Savior and His grace is just as good...
I am tired of holding myself down feelling horrible about my sins.I live by the power of Christ...bottom line..
Keep it Real,
Beau 33 |
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| so I made it to a year unfortunately I can't say the same for a young man in Clinton....it reminds me of what I put my family and friends through...may Christ reside with His family..
Until, and if, Christ chooses for us to meet again...peace!!!
Keep it Real,
Beau |
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| So in a few weeks it will have been one year since I walked into a hospital and asked for help with so major problems. For those who don't know, let me bring you up to date. A year ago I was struggling with major depression. It finally came to a head when I began threatening and even attempting suicide. I walked in to a hospital in Nashville, TN and spent a day there calming down and doing a lot of thinking.
It was the day I realized how much Christ has for me. That His plans are CRAZY big. It was the day that I was reminded how much hope I should have!
Since that time I have moved back to MS. Got a job at Guitar Center and been promoted twice! Found crazy amounts of friends. Served at a Chruch. Watched a Church fall apart unfortunately. See another Church emerge. Played in several places. Watched my nephew grow. Watched my dog get fatter. Moved in with a friend. I was practically engaged a year ago now I am very much so single.
Wow, a year is CRAZY! I am so happy. I realized last night while talking with some friends how long it has been. I started crying with joy knowing now that anytime suicide is a thought it is immediately gone b/c I don't want it.
I have also had to grow up some. I also graduated from college, had to start paying my own bills and all that good stuff. It has been a very sobering year. Yet, it has also been a year that has taught me sooooo much stuff. It has been a year of wrestling with the King...then crying with Him...then laughing with Him...its been a year of crazieness.
While yeah, I miss some of the things from a year ago I am a much more satisfied person.
I know this means very little to you...but wow I am AMAZED!!!!!!!!
Keep it Real,
Beau 33
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| Mistakes change our lives so much. I have learned this recently. It really sucks. What sucks more is the feeling of not being able to stop making mistakes and knowing that it hurts people.
I am sorry for all the mistakes I have made guys. Please know I am human, but that is no excuse, I am saved by grace. I am not supposed to be perfect but I don't really feel like I even try anymore to be. Maybe I don't. I don't know.
If I have hurt you I am sorry. If I haven't get ready I probably will...after all I am just a man...
Please know that this is all really good news though because seeing how not perfect I am always reminds me that He is perfect and He will never fail.
Scripture says that man will fail but God never will.
Please turn your eyes to Him...He is the same yesterday today and forever and hasn't made a mistake yet....this is very reassuring...man that feels good!!!!!!!
I am sorry...there are no words to convey the amount of pain you are in...I love you
Beau 33 |
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